I don't know why I do this to myself
Jun. 11th, 2007 09:06 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
pecuniumFred Clark, The Slacktivist, posted about the recent article relating to the book by the interrogator who is haunted by what he did.
It's part of why I've not been posting much lately. I made the mistake of getting involved in the discussion
There's an asshat who favors torture, and is engaging in the various debating tricks of those who are advocating the immoral.
Me, it pushes my buttons. I hate that it does, but it does. It screws me up. It makes me grumpy, and irritable. I find myself wanting to drink more, and lash out at people, and not motivated to do much of anything.
It's just one of those things I have to deal with. None of us comes back as we were; harder in some ways, tougher in others, and surprisingly brittle at the oddest of moments.
C'est la guerre
It's part of why I've not been posting much lately. I made the mistake of getting involved in the discussion
There's an asshat who favors torture, and is engaging in the various debating tricks of those who are advocating the immoral.
Me, it pushes my buttons. I hate that it does, but it does. It screws me up. It makes me grumpy, and irritable. I find myself wanting to drink more, and lash out at people, and not motivated to do much of anything.
It's just one of those things I have to deal with. None of us comes back as we were; harder in some ways, tougher in others, and surprisingly brittle at the oddest of moments.
C'est la guerre
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Date: 2007-06-12 07:12 am (UTC)The Articulate Sociopath Who Knows How to Push Buttons and Zeros in on People Who Give a Damn.
The bane of existence for decent people. LASFS was full of 'em, WWIV and FIDOnet, then Usenet, and now the blogosphere and LiveJournal.
I know precisely how you feel, it's all too personally familiar, the anger and frustration, and the knowledge that nothing you can do will ever cause them to feel the same pain they cause in you, or just get them to stop being sociopaths and learn to behave decently. You were a cool kid when I knew you personally, and from what I can tell from your LJ, you've grown into a fine man. You've never deserved to be targeted.
I'm sorry, Terry. Try to remember that this guy's a vampire and although I know it sounds lame to say it, and that it's easier said than done, try not to let him get any more emotional energy out of you -- or to use a different metaphor, try to get your needle to jump into a different emotional track from the one into which he's pushed you. Listen to some fine music or read some Le Guin or Heinlein or whoever takes you out of your head and into the author's better place.
Good luck, and my regards to your mom, Naomi, and Marty.