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pecunium ([personal profile] pecunium) wrote2010-03-23 03:48 pm

It's official

I am a disabled vet.

The actual percentage is croggling, and the effects will be good, and (honestly) a bit life changing.

I am rated 80 percent disabled. I get a pension. If I read it right I also get PX privileges (I can go back onto the Presidio of Monterey again).

I don't know if it gets me schooling (I think I might be able to get some rehab money). I don't know what it gets me by way of tuition breaks in Calif.

I'll have to look into it.

It's a lot to digest.

[identity profile] harimad.livejournal.com 2010-03-24 12:46 am (UTC)(link)
80... damnit I'm not that damaged
Nope. But, after all your experiences, do you expect the military to get it right? Nice (for emotionally complex values of nice) that there's a mistake in your favor.

[identity profile] pecunium.livejournal.com 2010-03-24 12:48 am (UTC)(link)
In realistic terms... I'd have thought 30 percent a stretch.

Then again, I look at it in terms of what I've paid to earn this, and think it's just.

Then I look at other people I know, who have it as worse than I do, who are getting dicked, and I think I don't deserve it at all.

As others have said, it's complicated.

[identity profile] pecunium.livejournal.com 2010-03-24 12:50 am (UTC)(link)
Did you send me a note about coming to the party? Someone did, and I can't recall whom, but there are only a couple of names which migh be it, and yours is one of them.

Your profile doesn't reveal proxmity, so I can't narrow it any better that way.

[identity profile] harimad.livejournal.com 2010-03-24 01:36 am (UTC)(link)
Then I look at other people I know, who have it as worse than I do, who are getting dicked, and I think I don't deserve it at all.

Roger that.

As for your party, I am regrettably non-proximate.

[identity profile] sylphslider.livejournal.com 2010-03-24 02:16 am (UTC)(link)
Then I look at other people I know, who have it as worse than I do, who are getting dicked, and I think I don't deserve it at all.

Survivor's guilt?

Take what you can, and fight for the rest. It's really the only way left open to any of us, any more.

[identity profile] commodorified.livejournal.com 2010-03-24 05:34 am (UTC)(link)
What she said. Managing to extract your rights from a fucked up system that denies them to others does not transform said rights into privileges.

[identity profile] dichroic.livejournal.com 2010-03-24 01:48 am (UTC)(link)
That's kind of what I was thinking. As for the guilt factor - the recognition for you does not actually hurt others; it may help them (or well, not help, but be an indicator of improvement), if it means the military is now starting to recognize the suffering of some of its people. At least it offers hope for others.

And congrats, for the parts of this for which those are appropriate.